07.11
- Library research
- MARINA ABRAMOVIC event at southbank center
After I got critic about my sketchbook from tutor last week, I considered how I can improve it. My sketchbook was like a scratch book. So I didn't have any idea of this project first, but I just started making a picture using hand drawing during the class. First, I started putting some pictures and drawing from my initial research then decided to use fashion on this project. It was really nice to focus on main sketchbook in the class and found what I want to do for this project.
Tutors said about one of my manifesto
The language must be translated
Second skin to conceal race, gender, class
Trust myself
are too fine art and conceptual so I should delete. But These manifesto are very important for me but I wanted to be flexible and change myself so I deleted. Sometimes I really lost myself. What should I believe...
It had really nice experience at the event of Marina Abramovic. While I was listening to, I stared being emotional. All my emotion spin fluently inside of my whole body. She kept saying that, It is not like I want to be artist. Artist should know I am artist since we are born. also she said some advice for young artists.
TRUST YOURSELF
LOOK AT YOUR OWN LIFE
ARE YOU AN ARTIST?
DON'T BE AFRAID OF ANYTHING
HAVE GOOD DETECTOR BULL SHIT
BE TENDER.
All these things are really important and essential for my future, and right now this moment. Also she said that about emotion. " I am not good at emotional thing, especially love.I was unable to talk, work...but you have to get out go this stage one day. I just went all way and then when you notice, you are out of it. Love is wonderful. I learned lots of thing from it. It made me strong. Emotion is really important. "
I think love made me strong but also made me weaker. Emotion is vey annoying for me because also I cannot control myself when I get emotional. hope I will learn in the future though...
Also she said "I don't need home.All I want are my own body and art. I don't need anything others."
Sometimes I have an illusion that I am in Denmark or Japan when I woke up in the morning. These 4 years, I am always moving my house and sometimes feel insecure where am I? Why am I here. But Marina's advice resonate with me. If I feel insecure next time, I will repeat her words to myself.
"She said that I am not feminist."
I think some people think about feminism and feminist, now these words are getting trendy now and even people don't know about what feminism is in a political way. I have lot of experience and couldn't get the chance because I am woman. Lots of Japanese girl have same experiment and feeling and they don't even notice about this. Because It is really common thing which You cannot do BECAUSE OF WOMAN. Also some of my friends who are women and work as full time job have experience that they couldn't call meeting and don't have many chance to go to tiger title even they are doing better job than men. I don't know about Europe but at least in Japan, It is really hard to say "I am feminist" in public place. you need very vey confidence and you have to understand after you said that everyone are going to see you in a different way. I think about this topic, people who never had experience which you were despisefeel contempt because of women. It is really sad to think about this, but why today 2016, Still do we have to think and talk about this topic? Because, Women including me, my friends who are around me are still having these experience in real life. It is nice she said that I am feminist It is because she is strong and she is protected by her surround. She is having a opportunity to be "NOT FEMINIST". But she also have to know people who still having these experiment and still fighting in real society everyday even though we kinds of know It is not going to change soon. It is related with our history, culture everything... We have to think about first, Why do we have to think about "feminism"? Why is feminism issue?
08.11
- Collect the materials for cloth
- Make cloth
Tutor gave me some place which I can get material for cloth. I couldn't find white kimono in London then I found raincoat on the street. Raincoat is also It doesn't matter which gender you are. I though I can use instead of real kimono so I decided to use it.
09.11
- Shooting
Today is raining unfortunately... my plan was shooting on the outside but It was impossible. We walked around and end up at the university which the model(my friend) is going to. I needed real sunlight because plant can breath only under the sunlight. But It was not sunny at all whole day. I was such an unorganised today. I learned when I take a photoshoot, I always have to think about plan B.
10.11
- Critic from Tutor and classmate
How well is the manifesto designed to reflect its content/ message?
The range of meanings and messages behind the manifesto really provokes the viewers to engage and really work.
How the manifesto been applied in an interesting way to develop the final outcome?
Using a government to represent the second skin is very successful
Unique now the manifesto acts more as steps rather than the message
However a lot of explaining of the concept is needed other for the viewer to understand.
What is the most successful aspect of the final outcome?
- The actual concept itself is very very deep and well developed, as well as engaging
- Using the idea of Left on right side wound't communicated the concept.
- Living garment that dies is a very string metaphor
Dose it give the viewer space to think and be creative?
Both visually and conceptually engaging
Did the student make appropriate choices of media and format?
A plan white background makes the photographer feel forced and constructed, rather than natural and a vital.
How does this function successfully as a piece of design?
The concept of challenging the borderline between life and death cause the viewer to really think.
After I got critic from the tutor, I noticed that my concepts too much meaning and didn't make sense some point. I know I always repeat same thing. Next project, I really HAVE TO be careful of this.
Also tutor said about my sketchbook, I should write explanation of drawings on each page. otherwise It is going to be just doodling.
What effect does formulating a manifesto, or statement of intent, have on you as a designer?
For me, I don't start make concept from format because we started taking pictures and drawing on the sketchbook first. It was one of tool for me. But It helps me a lot to lead to get what I want to express.
How does having a set of rules or restrictions help you develop your work?
To choose the materials of cloth, To chose location, place...again I would say that It helps me a lot to lead to get what I want to express.
What did you hope to achieve with your work and how does it compare to you pears reactions and feedback?
I really wanted to take photo outside and get sunlight. I completely agree with critic I got. I think I was thinking about concept too much and at the end It didn't make sense... I really have to be careful of this from next time.
How did your work engage an audience and how/ where might people encounter it? Was this a successful strategy?
I made a story of this project (It's on my sketchbook. Wish Audience started guessing or making their own story when they see my final outcome. and wish they will be in their own illusion)
How might you refuse your work further?
I should more think about what is the best way of communication to viewers. Not only self complacency but how communicate my work to other people. I have to be objective at some point while I am making. Also I learned I always have to make not only Plan A but B and C when I want to take photo shooting.
11.11
- Malick Sidibe : Dolce Vita Africana Screening and Q&A
It was one of my best day since I've been to London. I knew Mali and Malick Sidibe today. He is more documentary photographer who was taking photography on the street. He have such a charming and heartwarming personality. Documentary film was ok... some scenes were unnecessary and I got giddy. However Mali look very beautiful country in the film. Lots of colour, people's dress, hats, Mali music, dance... (In real, Not at all director said she doesn't want to go back now because Mali is be in financial difficulties and There are internal trouble everyday)
These are keywords of his words
"I dream about cloud which is muddy water."
"River is freedom place for young people. Girl never had been free."
"rogation always dominate"
"Las Vegas will be reborn"
"No suffering these moment tell you care free moment"
"I always frustrated of community"
"in 1960, It was creativity into the world. It was cosmopolitan. "
How is the different between 1960 and now in Mali? How the political and history make people change? How much do they have a impact for people's personality, dress, colour, daily life... I just want to know everything now including politic economic literally everything. I want to study fashion communication but I want to study and know not only fashion but also things, happening, history because It is always related with fashion. Why everyone dress like this? Why are public trust cans colourful? Why women don't have freedom? What people make happy and smile? How political effect to the people's daily life? Lots of WHY? in my brain. Yes It was such an amazing day.
12.11
- Prepare Portfolio
Just read all my reflection this 3 months for part one. I usually write it everyday so I completely forgot what I wrote about. I was thinking about what I've done this 3 months. I hit the wall since I came here all the time. I was always stuck and feel like never my final outcome communicate well even I tried my best. Still I'm on my way to find the correct and discover new aspect and possibility of myself. It is very funny to see how different my first week project (including sketch book) and week10 project. Even though I had certain my style before I came here. I wish I will change for good way and improve how communicate more and more. anyway I am super ready for part two and prepare for portfolio for FCP so excited.